In private

This blog has always been mainly therapeutic, but lately it's also made me feel slightly paranoid. There are so many reading it now, I get loads of curious emails from people who want to find out more, who want to date me and who want to know if I can introduce them to Mick Jagger. I'm beginning to feel it when I'm outside, walking the streets, people I meet, are they looking because they recognize me or is it maybe just in my mind?

Don't get me wrong, the attention I get is almost exclusively positive and that's what makes me want to continue. At the same time I'm giving away a lot of sensitive information about people I don't want to hurt, but I'm trying to protect them too, by not always using their real names for example.

And I understand curiosity as a driving force. It's what made me say yes to mother's invitation to go meet some of her old friends in the Village tomorrow. "Nothing fancy, just a dinner" she says. I'm sure the lady in black won't be there, but maybe someone else who might know something that I don't. It's worth a try.